another sleepless night

well, holiday will be over soon.
but idgas btw, cause I've been spent it well. by reading book, solve lil problem, playing games most all day, havin practice for some several things that I can't do as long as I am in Jogja.
and folks, I've made askfm w/o knowing what is the purpose. yap maybe ppl goin to ask me, but in reality no one gonna ask hahaha

later on, this is not my aim to suddenly write this post. I wanna tell you something that probably I've got really galaaaooo. in many nights. so that you can see my eyebag is goin bigger day by day. holy shit...
this much galau-er than when I've been closed w someone that I've never mentioned before and never.
then am only goin to ask, if you were me.. which one you choose:

having relation with the person who you love....

or with someone who love you.....

I may pretend for a long long time. to ignore someone who probably........... ah well it's tiring enough to be thought.
but for me, I can't always pretend. Cause there's something inside, can't be denied.